There's school, homework, friends, family, bell choir, language clubs....ugh. I'm just about losing it.
I'm stressed out constantly during school because I'm worried about my mom and keeping up with all the homework. It's just getting to me. I can't do things anymore. I've got to do the laundry, do the dishes, put everything away, sweep and swiffer the floors, clean my bedroom, cook dinner, and balance homework on top of that. Every single night. And I'm terrified I'll fall behind in school again. I can't, at all costs. I can't afford to. I can't, or I'll fail.
And on top of that, there's the daily drama schpeil that comes from having friends and friends with boyfriends. Honestly, it's so hard to keep up with everything and everyone.
My mom's home now, so I have to take care of her. Of course I will, there's almost no option, but I'm worried I won't get schoolwork and everything done while doing that. Because really, family comes before school. I would rather flunk the entire 9th grade than abandon my mom. But I can't fail for obvious reasons. There just aren't enough hours in the day.
And then, I'm getting worried about my health now. My eating habitsare horrible. All I do is binge eat. And I know I'm not drinking enough water. And, another odd worry of mine is that my ears hurt like hell. It feels like I'm scratching it with sandpaper every time I try to itch it.. Also, it'll hurt like hell at random times when I haven't even touched it. And lately, there are these weird technological dots that keep appearing in my vision. I don't know why, and I don't know how, and it's kind of scaring me.
Why, oh why god, did I have to start a new school, deal with my mother's surgery and all these doubts and drama at one time?
