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07 September 2008 @ 05:19 pm
God. This has got to be the worst start of the school year in my history. Everything is going on, and I'm barely able to keep up.

There's school, homework, friends, family, bell choir, language clubs....ugh. I'm just about losing it.

I'm stressed out constantly during school because I'm worried about my mom and keeping up with all the homework. It's just getting to me. I can't do things anymore. I've got to do the laundry, do the dishes, put everything away, sweep and swiffer the floors, clean my bedroom, cook dinner, and balance homework on top of that. Every single night. And I'm terrified I'll fall behind in school again. I can't, at all costs. I can't afford to. I can't, or I'll fail.

And on top of that, there's the daily drama schpeil that comes from having friends and friends with boyfriends. Honestly, it's so hard to keep up with everything and everyone.

My mom's home now, so I have to take care of her. Of course I will, there's almost no option, but I'm worried I won't get schoolwork and everything done while doing that. Because really, family comes before school. I would rather flunk the entire 9th grade than abandon my mom. But I can't fail for obvious reasons. There just aren't enough hours in the day.

And then, I'm getting worried about my health now. My eating habitsare horrible. All I do is binge eat. And I know I'm not drinking enough water. And, another odd worry of mine is that my ears hurt like hell. It feels like I'm scratching it with sandpaper every time I try to itch it.. Also, it'll hurt like hell at random times when I haven't even touched it. And lately, there are these weird technological dots that keep appearing in my vision. I don't know why, and I don't know how, and it's kind of scaring me.

Why, oh why god, did I have to start a new school, deal with my mother's surgery and all these doubts and drama at one time?
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altrockqueen12
03 September 2008 @ 03:47 pm

School. Has been. HORRIBLE.

Well, maybe not horrible, but it still sucks. My teachers seem decent. The worst part has been this afternoon. They teachers didn't say where the buses were, so me and some friends (Delaney, Olivia, and Kristy) all missed our buses. I flipped out because no one is home or would be for a good 6 or 7 hours, so I had no way home. Thankfully, Kristy (one of the sweetest people I know) said it was okay for us to come by her house so someone could get us. I was thankful, but walking for what felt like 2-miles in 92 degrees fahrenheit in a dark brown shirt, long khaki pants, and new shoes wasn't very nice. And my leg muscles hurt like hell. Ugh. I'm glad I'm home.

 
 
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altrockqueen12
03 September 2008 @ 05:19 am
Here's all the Good Mornings I know~: Buenos Días, Bom Dia, おはようございます (literal: O-HA-YO-U-GO-*-I-MA-SU), Guten Morgen, Bonjour,

Other languages: صباح الخير (Arabic), Добро утро (Bulgarian), 早上好 (Chinese), Dobro jutro (Croatin), Dobré ráno (Czech), Godmorgen (Danish), Goedemorgen (Dutch), Hyvää huomenta (Finnish), Καλημέρα (Greek), सुप्रभात (Hindi), Buon giorno (Italian), 안녕하세요 (Korean), God morgen (Norwegian), Dzień dobry (Polish), Bună dimineaţa (Romanian), Доброе утро (Russia), God morgon (Swedish)
 
 
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altrockqueen12
03 September 2008 @ 04:40 am
Today is Wednesday, the third of September, the first day of school. Currently, it is 4:40 am. I am up right now because I had to take my meds, again. So long summer~! So long cheerful attitude~! So long my true, girly, self~! Aaaand hellooo medication!

The reason I'm  posting right now? Because I recognized that, while i took my meds, they haven't absorbed yet. I'm still mildly cheerful. Oh no -- I can feel my headache already. >.< haha.

Honestly, I'm not dreading school that much. I'm dreading change. New school, new teachers, new attitude towards life...

I made a strawberry Eggo for breakfast. Haha, I just cooked, and already my mind says "I don't want it!!!!" haha.

Really, school, friends, new teachers...i just want to say right now, while I'm happy enough to believe it myself...I do look forward to this year. My subjects are all interesting, and my friends will be with me. I know I'll have fun. And my classes are so far from each other that I'll be thin soon enough~! Hahaha.

Almost done with my waffle. It wasn't much, but it'll be enough to get me through the day, i think.

Alright, well, it's five now, so I'm gonna make sure I'm packed and put on some pants.....hahaha, that sounds so weird. But it's true~! I slept in my shirt. Okay, I'll be on later to talk about my first day~!

And also, to a specific friend of mine, Eric, I AM going to watch some Shugo Chara, don't worry. Haha, I'll catch up soon enough.

Baaaai~!

Te amo.
Sarah
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altrockqueen12
24 July 2008 @ 03:06 am

Something I wrote on a whim. Weird. Never done that before. Huh. Tell me what you think, I guess.

 

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A young girl sits down on a coach in her home. She sits with her feet pulled up under her, the evening gown she was wearing bunched up around them, and a cell phone to her ear.

           "Alright, I understand…No, It's fine, I'll be fine….It's ok, maybe we could go out next week, or—" Clara cuts off. She hears a sound, a voice that any woman in her situation would dread. And worse, a voice she recognizes. On the end of the line is her boyfriend, who is supposed to racing back to the office due to an emergency call. She couldn't be sure of course, but she'd swear she heard her one of friends talking to John, her boyfriend.

           "Johnny, honey, who're you talking to? Hurry up, or we'll be later!"

There was a moment of shocked silence, then "John, who was that?"

Another moment of silence. "Uh, it was just the radio baby, sorry. I'll turn it down."

Clara couldn't believe it. She could just hear the lie in his voice. But, no, said a little voice in the back of her head, wait. Give him a chance. Always give the benefit of the doubt.

"Oh, ok, haha." She laughs uneasily, still a little shaken. She shouldn't have been so easy to accuse him. He wasn't cheating on her, he was just really busy. Well, really, really busy, but still, that didn't mean he was seeing someone else. So what if he came home late? His career was demanding. And the smell on his clothes? Just one of his co-worker's strong perfume. He's just a very hard worker with a very demanding job.

Or so he seemed. He'd told her countless times that the weeks he went without seeing her were because of the taxing and insistent nature of his job. True, she didn't exactly know what his job was, but trust is key in a relationship. But…could she trust him?

"What's wrong? You're a little quiet." Clara jumped at the sound of John's voice.

"Sorry, just got lost in my own world there for a second. It was just too weird. I swear that the voice I thought I heard was Trisha's," she explained. Hopefully that sounded believable. She didn't want John to know she was questioning him.

"Wait—How do you know Trisha?"

Before she could digest the information, the other female was talking again.

"What was that, Johnny? Sorry, I didn't hear you."

It was Trisha. Her best friend. With John. When he was supposed to be with her.

"How dare—" Clara started, about to call John's foul, but she never got the chance.

It happed fast. Trisha screamed. Tires squealed. A crash. Then, nothing. Just the dial tone.

Clara was called in to the police station the next day to help confirm the identities of her friends' corpses. She broke down right there, next to the bodies, as she realized that she was the one who heard their last words. And they were words of treachery, adultery, and lies. All against her.

Stabbed in the back, and staked through the heart, Clara picked herself up and drove herself home.

 
 
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altrockqueen12
22 July 2008 @ 11:26 am

How completely odd. We were talking about prom dress and, next thing I know, I'm picking my own outfit. Huh.

It's actually kind of pretty, really. It's a strapless dress, knee-length, and dark red. A pink sash, tied into a bow on the side, rests on the waist. It's truly a pretty thing. Here's a link, if it works. I'm not sure on shoes, But I'd love something with heels, maybe strappy, or lace-up (as in, lace wrapped up my leg), but definitely red or black. Here's a shoe that I like and would definitely consider.  Or, maybe this. I don't know. And maybe a necklace, too....Or maybe this dress.....



Gah. Whatever. I've gone strangely girly. And I don't know if it's a good thing or not.

 
 
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altrockqueen12
17 July 2008 @ 04:32 pm

What was your first LiveJournal usericon and why? Why did you select your current default userpic?


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altrockqueen12
17 July 2008 @ 04:08 pm

Who introduced you to LiveJournal? Why did you first open an account or get involved?


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My friend Kaga-chan first introduced me, and I joined because I was interested. I've always wanted a journal. :)
 
 
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altrockqueen12
17 July 2008 @ 03:06 pm
So, this is my first post. I'm not exactly sure how to do this, but I can try, I guess. I don't know what to put here!! Thought, I guess. Okay.

I'm in a state of utter confusion. Two of my friends, who've been friends almost as long as I can remember, are in a major kinda feud right now. And it sucks. I want to help both of them, but it just seems like I can't. If they're reading this, I think you know who you are. You guys are great friends who've always stuck by each other and to me, it's sad to know that you can't solve this problem. I know both of you WANT to talk to each other, but neither of you will. Both of you are some of my best friends, know my deepest secrets, and have always been there for me. I just wish you could do the same for each other. And I know, you probably will yell at me, and I know I deserve it, but I don't care. I don't think I could say this to either of your faces, so I'm typing it to a computer, half hoping that you'll read it.

Wish you luck
Te amo
Sarah
 
 
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